It has been brought to my attention lately how much words really do hurt. And I know what you are thinking..."Oh no not again. I've heard this since grade school. Please don't go on a rant." But if you keep reading, you might be wrong. This is something so personal to so many people.
I've been learning in classes, that some theorist believe we are a product of our environment. Though I believe other factors play a part in who we become, our environment does impact us greatly.We can only become what we know, and for most people all they know is what they have been around. So maybe before you start to judge someone according to your standards, you should take a step back and look and why they may be different.
There is something beautiful about the differences in people. Think about that. I do not believe there are 'better' people, only different people. Maybe sometimes the roles people play in life do not get them what they want, but also maybe those people don't know how to change it either.
I feel like we all have that story. The story where someone said something negative about us and it stuck with us. Someone laughed at us, talked about us, made fun of us, picked on us....the list goes on. Things stick with us. But it is not only what we say that hurts people. It is what we do. I am the worse about my face giving away exactly what I am thinking, and I don't even have to say a word. A lot of times you can tell a friend is mad at you just because of how they are acting, and they don't even really have to say anything. We have to be so aware of ourselves, or we will hurt people without even realizing it. What we say is not simply words, but it is what we do.
I just need somewhere to cry out to God, to love, to justice, to truth, to peace, and to hope. I need somewhere to be honest. Somewhere to figure things out. This is my journey...
Jan 29, 2012
Jan 18, 2012
This time of year always seems to take a toll on me. I don't know if it is the cold weather or the lack of sunshine, but I always seem to be a Debbie Downer. Or as my friend Jazzie would say a Negative Nancy. I think it is part of my genes or something. I can't help it.
There is just so much I'd like to change. I'm SO ready for the next thing. I'm already way over this whole school thing. And it stresses me out to think about our comprehensive exams and practicum and internship. I just feel like I have so much to do in a little amount of time. I'm ready for that little amount of time...which feels like years...to hurry along.
I want to move somewhere new with the love of my life. I want to start fresh with my own place and a new job in a new city/town to explore. I love that feeling of starting over. I like the struggle of meeting new people and finding a new church. I like that feeling of adventure.
I love my program, and my course of study. But the more I learn about counseling the less I want to do a sit down formal counseling job. I want to be out in the community advocating. I want to work with at risk teenagers and their families. I'm taking a group class this semester and I have a feeling I'm really going to like it. The group setting is what I love the most. That feeling of community and doing it together.
Okay, I'm done rambling and venting now.
God, help me to get excited about this life I'm living right now and not focus on the life I want in the future. Amen.
There is just so much I'd like to change. I'm SO ready for the next thing. I'm already way over this whole school thing. And it stresses me out to think about our comprehensive exams and practicum and internship. I just feel like I have so much to do in a little amount of time. I'm ready for that little amount of time...which feels like years...to hurry along.
I want to move somewhere new with the love of my life. I want to start fresh with my own place and a new job in a new city/town to explore. I love that feeling of starting over. I like the struggle of meeting new people and finding a new church. I like that feeling of adventure.
I love my program, and my course of study. But the more I learn about counseling the less I want to do a sit down formal counseling job. I want to be out in the community advocating. I want to work with at risk teenagers and their families. I'm taking a group class this semester and I have a feeling I'm really going to like it. The group setting is what I love the most. That feeling of community and doing it together.
Okay, I'm done rambling and venting now.
God, help me to get excited about this life I'm living right now and not focus on the life I want in the future. Amen.
Jan 3, 2012
it's a new year
When I think about this past year, it absolutely amazes me. Sometimes things happen so fast, yet slow at the same time. The valleys always make the mountain top that much better. It is hard to think back and remember all the things that God brought me through in 2011. So much has happened. I found love. I found friendships. I've been blessed with an amazing job. My family and I are transitioning into a mature relationship. School is going by so quick, and I'm starting to see some of my calling. I'm realizing how deep my hunger is for adventure, and how extremely hard it is for me to settle down...anywhere.
This year my life song has had times of shouted heartbreak and times of rejoiced hallelujahs. Notes have turned into melodies and I'm starting to see life before me. God always seems to find the broken pieces and place them back together in some fashion or another. And it always seems to be better than I could have ever imagined.
Thank you God for a new year, but also thank you for this past year. I am truly grateful. Love.
This year my life song has had times of shouted heartbreak and times of rejoiced hallelujahs. Notes have turned into melodies and I'm starting to see life before me. God always seems to find the broken pieces and place them back together in some fashion or another. And it always seems to be better than I could have ever imagined.
Thank you God for a new year, but also thank you for this past year. I am truly grateful. Love.
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