The Simple Life

I just want to live simply. I want my priorities to be straight. I feel like the whole world around me is in a constant state of chaos. Everyone worries about things that don't really matter. Do you realize how big God is? I mean come on now. It seems like people will do whatever they have to in order to get to the top....the top of what? I'm not sure exactly. The top of society I guess. But who really wants to be there? And I've never really seen anyone stay for very long. I think the higher you go, the harder you'll fall. And I don't know about you, but I don't really take pain well.

let. me. live. simply.
please.

Epiphany

I am starting to learn a lot about myself. I know that the college experience radically changed my life. I had an amazing group of friends. The classes I took challenged me to the very core of who I was. Now that I'm going on a year out of my undergrad and living back home. I'm staring to realize how much those experiences really changed my whole outlook on life. I was talking to a friend the other day and said, I use to not be like this. And that is true. I wasn't always this passive. There was a time I wanted the greater things in life. I use to put myself above others. I use to want to strive hard and be the best, not for myself, but for those around me. I couldn't fall, everyone was watching. And though I was never perfect, I always acted like I was. I think over time, I gave up. I gave up living for everyone else and started living for myself. I gave up striving for things that won't last, and realized that everything I have was given to me anyway. I don't have to be the best; I just have to do my best. The simplicity of life has overwhelmed me. I just want to love God and love people.

Now, I'm still far from perfect. I struggle everyday. And I think this whole self realization thing might be part of the process of life. I have been in Graduate School a total of 3 weeks and can already feel myself changing. I am already being challenged. For some reason, I am more aware of it now. Maybe that is just part of getting older. I don't know. But I've never really been afraid of change.

God, thank you for molding me and shaping me into the person you would have me be. continue to transform me. help me to stay focused on the things that really matter. Amen.